meh.

Hey.

I'm kinda annoyed at the moment. Last night I was just about to go to bed when I got a message from my mate Will, asking how my exams were going, and then he asked if I fancied him. He said that a few people had told him that I did - which got me so annoyed, 'cause it means that my mates have been spreading rumours behind my back. It's just like a few years ago, I was mates with these two girls and I thought they liked me, but it turned out that they were spreading rumours and making people pick on me. I hated them for years and now my friends have gone and done it again. I'm starting to re-think my decision to stay on at the Sixth Form at my school - I might just go to the school where my Primary School friends go now, if I can. I've been feeling them drift away from me lately (my current friends) but I'd never think they'd do that.

I picked up on it before, when this boy Tom, who's in 'my' group, kept saying 'Will's over there Phillie.' and ' How's Will today Phillie?' and then glancing over at my other friends. Then it occured to me - Tom's never really been my friend. I mean, I'm 'close' with other people in the group, but he's always kinda been taking the mick outta me. So that feels kinda weird, to realise that after all this time. I doubt any of them will ever read this, so it's okay to say.

*sigh*

I may write more later. But I have revision to do. I have four exams, and they're gonna be the four hardest: Science (all three, Chemistry, Biology and Physics), Maths (*shudder*), History and English. So today and tomorrow are going to be fun!

Bring on my brothers birthday...that's the day when I'll be free of those demons, and a week later I'll be totally free! Yay!

Phillie.

 

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I am not revising. I simply can't. I tried and tried and tried....maybe it's just the Biology-ness....but I couldn't concentrate. It's just......annoying. Now I'm tired.

I'm gonna go watch TV.

Phillie.